black........

In the alley of darkness and shadows I walk,

Into a bottomless abyss is where I fall,

I scrape my soul as I slowly crawl,

Out of the depth of this blackhole.

The shelf-life of my being was cut to half,

Into the bright light I did not walk,

The way I was living, I did not want,

The kind that was filled with thunderstorm,

Choked with emotions, I couldn't breathe,

Ran out of air, I couldn't speak,

Thumps of my heart were agonizing beats,

Nothingness was my safe retreat.

The only difference between living and dead,

Is I lost my body and nothing else,

Blind, I still see... dead and I still breathe,

Numb, I still feel... for me everything is still real,

When I cried, no one wiped away my invisible tears,

Though I tried, I couldn't fight away all of my fears,

I have been fighting with me all of these years,

Now the deafening silence of the stillness is all I hear.

I hurt so deep yet there is no pain,

I have been bleeding for so long from within,

The rip in my heart was like a phantom limb,

Shearing pain of a nonexistent being,

To fly free from this ache, from this life I had to run,

I trip, I stumble, into myself I drowned,

My escape from myself, from everything and everyone,

I didn't know what else to do, except for what I had done,

Like a fallen angel, my soul cursed with my sins,

I hope one day HE would take me with him,

From the grey clouds I rise to the darker skies above,

Now all I see is black, the kind of black no one deserves.

*Even though I walk through valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. Psalm 23:4

(credit goes to "slipperythoughts" for having written BLACK and for being my inspiration....)
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